I totally feel your pain with recovery. I was diagnosed with medulloblastoma 7 years ago. Doctors had finally found the tumer after I had it 5 years before. I can’t remember having surgery, just that my recovery had been horrible. I couldn’t hold anything in my stomach or move that much at all. Even though I have gradually become better at those things, there are still some things I lack. Like holding a pencil with one hand.