am I alone?
im Brooke. i just turned 16 on friday… well around september i stared having some pretty wacky things go on with me.. i started to get bad nose bleeds and i started getting weird bruises all over me and i was always tired id wake up in the middle of the night covered in sweat and yet it be to weak to get up… my mom begain to relize this was happening she also has cancer so does my soon to be step dad. she took me to the doctor and sure enough i had cancer(AML) they did radiation for about two weeks and i was out of school but it didnt help much… so my mom put me back in school. i didnt wanna start chemo but surly enough this morning i started it back up): my friends dont really understand they are saying that they are always going to be here… but what about when i started to look like a freak or when my medication starts to make me gain weight then what? they already thought i was lying about it… they said i wasnt showing symtoms when really im just hiding all my pain from them… the truth is im in so much pain you couldnt believe it! i can barley move without every bone in my body aching. im already loosing my hair… and im scared to go back to school! what will everybody say… i dont even want my friends to know whats going on… let alone the whole school… im scared they will mistake me for a guy. what i dont get is why me? what did I do? did i do something to desurve this… im just a normal kid… my friends say that they will always be here for me but really i feel alone… that why im glad i found this web page… i dont feel so alone anymore i feel like i finally have people to relate to(: