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When I was diagnosed with Breast cancer a few years back, I reacted like most who receive a cancer diagnose; first thing came to mind was a “death sentence”. However, I found out later that it was truly “an awakening” for me; even after being diagnosed with colon cancer a few years later. I began questioning God, why would you do this to me? What had I done in life so bad to have this placed upon me? But instead of bemoaning my fate, I decided to look for the positive side of it. There has to be a reason for it all.
I also realized that I was about to face a new beginning, new hope, do and see more with a whole new prospective on life. When I think of the “gift of life” that was given to me, I know that I will develop and gain strength from all my experiences. Even with the complications I now have to live with, and all the struggles I\\\’ve dealt with my entire life, I still feel truly blessed. For a while, I wasn\\\’t happy with the way I looked after my surgery and the pain I had to endure each day, but I decided to snap out of it. I thought about the individuals that are no longer among us. I also realized that there will always be someone worse off than I am. I reminded myself, that I “still have my life” and who am I to complain.
One day I experienced something of a miracle and felt the compulsion to write it down. I turn that experience into a poem and I called it “Peace”. Writing has become therapy for me. I took that poem, along with many others I had composed during my breast cancer period and placed them into book form. I was blessed enough to have that book published and it\\\’s titled “True Simple Poems of Life, Faith and Survival”. I\\\’m hoping that anyone who has the opportunity to read my poems, get out of them, what I placed in all of them. My poems are from the heart, as real as any could ever be. With the words and phrases of each poem of statement, I wish to make a positive impact on someone who\\\’s ill or otherwise, where they could develop the strength to embrace life in a whole new way. I never anticipated becoming a writer, I just became one. I truly believe when you survive a horrific tragedy or a horrible disease as cancer, it\\\’s for a reason, “you have a purpose” and I want to live to find find out exactly what that is for me.
I recently had another inspirational book published, titled “If Only I Could Fly, said Mattie-bee” and I\\\’m working on my third. See, that\\\’s what I\\\’m all about now, inspiration. I would have never become a writer, producing inspirational poems and stories, if I had not gone through all that I did. I\\\’m a true example that you can survive cancer not once, but twice, providing you catch it in time, have faith and allow that faith to direct your path. I\\\’ve not saying all will be easy, but you must believe. This is what my experiences with cancer made of me, a true believer!
Karen Rice/x2 Cancer Survivor
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September 11th, 2012 was probably the scariest day of m my entire life. It was the day i was diagnosed with synovial sarcoma, a rare type of bone cancer found in kids. Although it hasnt been that long, i feel like i\’ve been dealing with it forever. I had to undergo chemo, radiation AND surgery. Chemo for me wasnt even the worst part. The surgery was. I finally finished chemo and had my surgery January 3rd of 2013.They had to take a huge piece of my femur(thigh) bone out and i now have metal and a 10 inch scar.I\’m doing a lot better with getting around. No more wheel chair.Just crutches. I shopuld be getting my port out soon. And when i thought i was done, i fell yesterday on my leg and i am back in the hospital because of pain management. Its a never ending rollercoaster and i wanna get off.
My name is Katie. I was 2 years old when I was diagnosed so I guess this doesn’t really fit in with the whole “teen” thing.. but I’m a teen now, so I decided to put in my two cents. I don’t really remember a lot about having cancer, I mean, I was 2. Do you remember things when YOU were two? I remember bits and pieces, as would anyone. I was diagnosed with Acute Lymphatic Leukemia in January 2000, 13 years ago. I was in remission when I was 5. I’ve been cancer free for about 10 years now. My mom told me that I was on the verge on dying.. I was supposed to die the night that my pastor at the time came and he prayed for me and I don’t know what your view of religion is, but I believe that there is power in prayers because the next day, the doctor said that there was a chance of me living now and from then on, I kept getting better.. Now I am healthy and I hope to work with cancer children when I’m older. Every July there is a Relay for Life cancer walk in my town, I have gone every year since I was about 4 maybe. All I have to say for those of you fighting: Hope for tomorrow. Pray whenever you can. Love always. and Kick cancer’s ass. <3 I love you all. STAY STRONG
Hi, I’ve only just found this site as I thought it might be helpful to share stories with people who have gone through a similar situation to me.
2 years ago when I was 17, I went to the doctors with an unusual numb feeling in my right hip, he sent me for ultrasounds, CT scans, MRI scans and eventually for a flexible cystoscopy (incase anyone doesn’t know that’s basically when they put a camera up into your bladder). As soon as the cystoscopy was over I was asked to wait in the surgeons office while he went to get my parents, we all sat in the office while he told us I had a bladder tumor that could be cancerous, as soon as I heard the word ‘tumor’ I just completely zoned out.
I was put on an emergency list and I had an operation just 2 weeks later to remove the tumor, they done some tests and found out it was cancerous, so they injected a dose of chemo into my bladder.
Luckily that one dose was all I needed and I now have an operation every 6 months to check the tumor hasn’t came back, which it hasn’t done yet!
I am definitely very lucky and sometimes I don’t think I deserve the sympathy people give me, all I think is I didn’t know it was cancer until after it was gone and I only needed one dose of chemo, which didn’t give me any side effects at all since it was injected straight into my bladder.
The only thing is sometimes I feel like I don’t have anyone to talk to about it, no-one I know has gone through anything like this and according to my doctor, Im about 60 years too young to have bladder cancer, no-ones knows why I got it so young and now everytime I have my 6 monthly operation or I have the slightest pain in my bladder im terrified the tumors back. I guess that’s just something ill have to get used to.
Thanks for letting me rant, haha
Let me just say that this website is great. I don’t feel so alone now knowing other people have gone through what I’ve been through. I feel like I should share my story, because it may help someone.
I was a normal 10 year old. I was enjoying my 6th grade year and living my life to the fullest. I enjoyed many trips to Disney and was taking dance classes. Life was good. Until, April of 2010. I was diagnosed with embroynal rhabdomyosarcoma. Phew! Never thought I could say it all.
At age 10. The tumor was in my sinuses and I had surgery to test it for malignancy at the children’s hospital of Philadelphia. Our fear came true when we learned it was cancer. It felt like my heart had sunk to the floor when I found out. As a young girl, when I learned I would have to have chemo I immediately thought of my hair. Would it be gone right away? How long until it all fell out? I wasn’t thinking of the seriousness of the situation, but I guess that’s where the innocence of a child comes through. My doctors at CHOP had me start treatment immediately so we could nip this cancer in the butt. I endured many pokes and pinches, blood transfusions, and 3 surgeries through the whole process. I had a feeding tube since I wouldn’t be able to eat for 10 months. Imagine that. I didn’t put one piece of food in my mouth for 10 months. I was fed through a tube in my stomach. My throat was so damaged from the radiation I would need. I had 10 months of chemo. It was a long journey, but I came out victorious. I beat my cancer and now I’m almost 2 years out if my last treatment.
I want to let those starting out to know that you will get through this. Yes, it’s devastating. Your going to feel so many emotions. But, think of your life. You will get through this and there will be a better life after cancer. I’m living it.
It all started on October 14, 2011. We went to the dermatologist, Dr. Amy Orsini. She examined the bump and said that the bump on my skin looked red. We scheduled an appointment to take a biopsy of the bump on November 14, 2011.
Leading up to the appointment was nerve wracking. I didn’t really know what to expect or what was going to happen. I had never had anything like this before!
On the day of the biopsy, I remember being really nervous. We had to wait for about 40 minutes for the doctor. I had a test the next day, and really needed to get home to study.
At last, the doctor arrived. She apologized for being late. There was also a very nice nurse. When Dr. Orsini started, she first gave me some local anesthesia through a shot. There were three or four of them, and they hurt like hell! It was the most painful thing that I have ever experienced. After that, I didn’t feel anything. I was listening to the iPod the whole time, and the doctor and nurse were talking to me. The nurse and my mom held my hand the whole time. Before I knew it, the doctor was stitching me up. I felt a little bit of that because the medicine was wearing off, but it wasn’t too bad.
The next day, Dr. Orsini called with the result. We received some harrowing results. The bump was cancerous, and I had to get the bump removed again. I was so upset that I immediately started crying. I couldn’t believe it! The first experience was awful, and I could not imagine going through it again!
We then went to a doctor named Dr. Singh Bel. She was one of the nicest doctors I have ever met. She felt very comfortable doing the procedure. I was relieved at that point. We thought that this was for sure the doctor that we would be sticking with for the procedure.
Unfortunately, the tables turned for the worst. We got a call two days later from Dr. Singh Bel. She said that she wasn’t sure how big it was, and that I needed an MRI done of my brain to see the size of it.
The MRI was terrible. I had to lie in the machine for about two hours! The machine was as loud as a lawn mower, and I had to keep my head perfectly still. The worst part was that I had to get contrast injected in the middle of it. I was so scared that I started crying. My mom had to hold my shoulders down. The technologist could not find a vein, and so he had to stick me twice.
We got the results a few says later. Good news- the bump was smaller than she expected. However, she didn’t feel comfortable removing it, so she sent us to Northwestern.
When we got to Northwestern, everything started moving really fast. I saw two doctors on the first appointment. I was crying, and I think I had a good reason to. Initially, the plastic surgeon said that he’d need to shave half of my head for the surgery. This was just too much for me. When I heard the news, I started crying. The doctor, meanwhile, just sat there and stared at me. I was thinking, “ You are an idiot. You just met me, and then you gave me extremely horrible news that made me cry. Now, you’re just sitting there staring at me. What’s wrong with this picture?”. I was enraged, but didn’t say anything.
We then went to the main surgeon’s office. I was so upset at this point that I didn’t even care about what was going on. This was a big mistake on my part, but I didn’t know it. We met a nice nurse named Jennifer, who would later be the one who would talk to me on the phone and answer my questions. We met with a resident, and I didn’t even try to understand what was going on. Everything that happened that day was a blur.
The next time we went back to the hospital, January 23, was for the first surgery. At this point, I was so freaked out that my dad had to give me a tranquilizer called Valium. It was so scary! I had to get shots in my head to numb me up. I must have had about 20 shots (ok, maybe I’m exaggerating!), and they injected me three times to get the tissue out. I was panicking. It took about five hours before the surgery was over.
Later that day, I also went in for a pre-surgical checkup. By that time, I was so upset and worn out that I didn’t even care about what was going on. The checkup, to be honest, sucked! The nurse said, “Why is there blood on your shirt?”. What a bogus question! “ I had surgery this morning”, I retorted. When she left, she asked my parents, “ What ya got goin’ on there?”. What a bitch! * smirks*
Waiting was the hardest part. It was so hard to go to school and pretend everything was normal when it wasn’t. I have to admit that my grades went down, but who could blame me. I had to tell my teachers about what was going on, and that was extremely awkward. They were like, “ Is everything ok?”. What was I supposed to say to that, “yes”?
On February 7, Jennifer called to see how I was doing. She warned me about getting my head shaved: “ Be prepared to see yourself when you wake up”. That scared the crap out of me!!
The morning of February 8, we had to get to the hospital at 6:00 in the morning. My surgery was scheduled to start at 7:30 a.m. There was so much to do: register, get my hospital bracelet, and go to my room. I was really scared. They gave me a horrible green hospital gown to change into. I was sweating uncontrollably here! I had absolutely no idea whatsoever what to expect.
We waited for what seemed like forever. I just lied on the bed staring at the clock. Eventually, all these people started coming into my room. It was so damn scary! I was staring up at this weird looking bag hanging on the ceiling with plastic tubes coming out of it. I put two and two together and realized that it was an I.V. Oh well, I guess that’s inevitable. I thought to myself.
Before I knew it, it was time to get the I.V. Unfortunately, I am a needle phobic. In fact, I almost fainted at a blood test once! The nurse had to give me a shot to numb me before, and that hurt like hell, and it didn’t even help! I still felt the I.V needle going into my hand.
The plans changed a bit at this point. Originally, I was going to have half my head shaved, but they decided not to do hat, but instead to do a skin graft. I was a bit concerned, but at least I’d have hair in the end!
Eventually, the time had come for me to be wheeled down to the OR. I was so drugged up that I didn’t really pay attention to that. I started freaking out when I got to the OR. There were so many people hanging around in there! The room was really big with bright lights. I tried to calm myself down by chatting with the nurses, most of whom were men.
Then a squishy teal ( I don’t know whether it was blue or green) mask was put over my face, and I fell asleep. The mask was unexpected. It freaked me out, but I didn’t really have time to think about it. I don’t really remember much after that…
The next thing I knew, I woke up in the recovery room. I was intubated during the surgery, so my throat was a bit sore. Surprisingly enough, I wasn’t nauseous at all when I woke up! After a few minutes, I was wheeled to another room to see my parents. I had a popsicle and some ginger ale. After that, my parents left to go get me some food from Corner Bakery. I had not eaten all day!
After about an hour or so, the nurse, who’s name was Teri, had me get up and try to walk around. I was a bit dizzy, but I was fine. It was time to go home after that. I missed about 5 days of school, and I wasn’t allowed to wash my hair for five days. It was disgusting! I wash my hair every day, so I was glad when I finally could again! By the fifth day after the surgery, my hair was an absolute mess. I couldn’t go to school because of that, but luckily I could wash my body- thank god! I hate going a day without a shower!
It was really great to go back to school the Tuesday after surgery, which just so happened to be Valentine’s Day! A lot of people asked where I was, but they weren’t rude about it. There’s a difference between rudeness and curiosity! I had to wear an adorable black hat with a grey flower that my dad’s friend made me, but nobody noticed. At New Trier, many kids wear hats!
Unfortunately, due to the surgery, my grades started to slip. I didn’t fail any classes, but they went down by a letter grade at most. But that wasn’t the most of my problems! That didn’t stop me!
We went back to the surgeon, and he said that I’d have to have another surgery to take off another bump, luckily not cancerous. It was so scary to think about, but it really wasn’t that bad. I was sedated, so there was no general anesthesia involved- YAY!
when i was younger i cant remember how old i was diagnosed with a wilms tumor. I went through all the treatment and everything. But here is the miracle i went under an other ultrasound before surgery and i found out it was gone! i didn’t need the surgery i am now almost 15 in a couple years so it Ive been cancer free for about 12 years im guessing. im a fighter
if you have cancer you must watch this
Hi my name is Abigail and im 16. I just found out about this website and think it is wonderful! I was diagnosed with a brain tumor in my brain stem when i was about 2. I underwent biopsies and all kinds of surgery. The doctor managed to get about half out but has since grown a bit more. Now i have weakness on my left side and cant eat on my own so i have a j tube and a trach. I cant speak so i use sign laanguage to communicate. This does make me frusterated because i go to public school and must have an interpreter and a nurse follow me around school. Its a major social turn off but i have a couple of close friends who care enough to ignore them and learn sign language. I am looking forward to college and what the world has to offer. I am a strong person and for you guys going through cancer and the treatments you have to stay strong and positive.
Hey my name is Mark i’m 22 years old I was diagonosed with a Brain Tumor when I about 4. I had two biopsys with which lead to my who right side going week. THen I was all good untill I was about 12 and the tumor started growing back and had to go radiation twice and kemo once not fun. I’ve had an MRI every 6 months since I was 4. I’ve been through hell growing up with all my medical issues, but that never ever stoped me from doing what I wanted to do in life. I manage one of Rochester top car dealerships online inventory and for damn sure one of their hardest workers. I can drive stick shift like a speed demon out of hell, tie my shoes 1 handed. I know how to fix most things on cars I know how to do body work and paint cars. I’ve been skiing since the age of 3. I can rip it on a snowmobile or a four wheeler. What I have been through growing up was a drag and i’m sure anyone with cancer can relate but it made me who I am today and I’m not going to let America #1 killer stop me from what I do in life. For all the surviors out their and people going through treatment now I feel for you but don’t let this nasty disease let you down. Look up at life and live life to its fullest and dont let anything stop you from what you want to do. If you would like to ask me any questions or talk I would be glad to here is my facebook page http://www.facebook.com/#!/beanzzy